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Life sometimes has a way of forcing us to pause, especially when we’ve ignored all the subtle hints it gave us before.
For me, this blog isn’t just an article; it’s a thank-you note to the Universe. It’s my way of expressing gratitude for recovery, healing, and the chance to start again.
As a child growing up in an academically driven society, I was taught to aim high; to achieve the sun, the moon, and everything in between. “Study hard, play hard” wasn’t just advice; it was a lifestyle. The pressure to deliver perfect grades shaped the early architecture of my ambitions. Excellence was synonymous with being worthy. And so I set off chasing achievement after achievement, believing that good grades would open doors to a successful and stable future.
The Perils of a Performance-Obsessed Culture
From school corridors to college campuses, the obsession with high scores and spotless resumes became a defining part of my identity. I didn’t question it; I just followed the roadmap society had etched for me. Education led to a robust qualification, which in turn landed me a prestigious job in India’s financial capital. Investment banking, a career brimming with promise, challenges, and relentless hours.
But the same passion that fueled my success slowly began to consume me.
The Misconception of Productivity
My job as an investment banker was intellectually thrilling and fast-paced. I was surrounded by brilliant minds and aggressive ambition. Everyone wanted to be at the top of the ladder, and I was no different.
Long hours and weekend meetings weren’t exceptions; they were expected. I wore my overtime like a badge of honor. I believed that working more meant achieving more, and I assumed rest was a luxury reserved for the unmotivated. I felt guilty if I spent a weekend unwinding instead of plotting new goals.
In hindsight, I see how dangerous that mindset was.
Ignoring the Signs My Body Gave Me
Our bodies are wiser than we often realize. Mine was shouting for help, I just didn’t listen. Subtle signs turned into alarming symptoms. Fatigue, body pain, dizziness… I brushed them off. I feared slowing down would mean losing momentum, falling behind, and appearing less competent.
Instead of caring for my health, I pushed through. I convinced myself that deadlines mattered more than my well-being. But this wasn’t sustainable.
Eventually, my body had the final say.
The Diagnosis That Changed Everything
I was diagnosed with Isaacs’ Syndrome. It is a rare neuromuscular condition marked by muscle stiffness and involuntary movements. It was a complete shock. That diagnosis was followed by others:
- Lyme disease — A bacterial illness transmitted by tick bites
- Glaucoma — An eye condition that damages the optic nerve
- Membranous Glomerulonephritis. — A kidney disease with severe implications
- Irritable Bowel Syndrome (IBS), Diabetes, Frozen Shoulder, Eczema, Blood Pressure issues
The domino effect had begun. One health issue led to another. My gut, my immune system, my stamina; all spiraled downward.
I tried everything—physical therapies, medications, new diets. But the symptoms persisted. Even side effects from treatments became their battles. My condition was degenerative, and continuing to work became unbearable.
Work vs. Health: The Impossible Tug of War
With chronic pain as my new companion, the once-thrilling job became suffocating. Even simple tasks felt impossible. Every morning was a new struggle, not to be productive, but just to get out of bed.
I finally decided to quit.
Initially, guilt overwhelmed me. Had I failed? Was I giving up? But deep down, I realized this wasn’t a choice; it was survival. Continuing to push through would have been reckless.
From Breakdown to Breakthrough
That decision to prioritize health was a turning point. Not just in my career, but in how I saw the world. Chronic illness forces you to rethink everything: your goals, your relationships, your values.
This journey taught me the real definition of productivity. It’s not about working harder; it’s about working smarter and knowing when to pause.
Here’s what I’ve learned:
1. Tune into Your Body’s Signals
Never dismiss fatigue, pain, or mental fog as “just stress.” These are warning bells; pay attention.
2. Self-Care Is Non-Negotiable
Stretch, hydrate, take walks, and unplug. These practices aren’t indulgent; they’re essential.
3. Stress Is More Powerful Than You Think
The mental toll of overwork can manifest in surprising physical ways.
4. Boundaries Are Vital
It’s okay to say no. It’s okay to skip the weekend hustle. It’s okay to protect your peace.
5. Ask for Help and Build a Support System
Whether at work or home, having allies who understand your journey makes all the difference.
6. Digital Detox Heals
Take a no-mobile day once a week. The clarity and calm it brings is worth it.
Living With a Rare Disease in a Competitive World
There’s a harsh truth that many with chronic illnesses face: traditional workspaces aren’t built for us.
Energy crashes. Unpredictable symptoms. The emotional burden of watching your peers thrive while you struggle just to show up. Even dressing “normally” feels painful sometimes. But that doesn’t mean we don’t belong.
Digital transformation is bringing hope. Remote roles, flexible hours, accessibility tools—these changes offer a more inclusive future for people like me. We may move slowly, but our contributions still carry value.
A Message for Anyone Feeling Like They’re Falling Behind
If you’re juggling a demanding job while battling health challenges, I see you. You’re not lazy. You’re not weak. You’re doing the best you can with the cards you’ve been dealt.
It’s okay to stop. It’s okay to rest. And it’s okay to heal.
Your worth isn’t defined by your deadlines.
It’s defined by your perseverance, your courage, and your commitment to keep going; even if that journey looks different from others.
Conclusion: Redefining Success
For years, I saw success as a straight road lined with promotions and paychecks. Now, I see it as something much deeper:
- Waking up without pain
- Eating a nourishing meal
- Laughing with a friend
- Writing this story to help others
Health is the real wealth. And if my experience can serve as a gentle nudge to even one person reading this, to pause, reevaluate, and choose healing; then every moment of struggle will have been worth it.
Let’s collectively redefine the hustle. Let’s start prioritizing what matters. Let’s choose health, not just when we’re forced to, but every single day.
DISCLAIMER
The views expressed in this blog are personal reflections. They do not constitute medical advice or professional guidance. Always consult your healthcare provider for treatment and diagnosis.